Sojourning the Earth. Settling for Eternity.

With the massive layoffs that our company is doing, I was pretty surprised that my teammates were so chill. That's good I guess, that people are focused on their projects. Or maybe that's because they don't want to think about it... In any case, I turned on my computer on Monday and as I tried to log in, a very surprising message box appeared... "Your account is expired." That was pretty nerve wracking. I tried restarting and logging in again. Nothing. Restart and then... Nope, nothing. At this point, my mind is already thinking about the possibility that I was laid off. I told my supervisor about it and he referred me to our executive assistant. My heart was pounding so fast. All I can do is just pray. I know its counterintuitive but I forced myself to continue to give thanks. Something that my mom encouraged me to do when I feel troubled and I thanked her for that. I was thankful that our Father has given me this job. The chance to come back to Waterloo to conti...

You know what I find really cool? When a body of believers prays. It doesn't matter where you are in this world or whether your prayer is being communicated through words or email or even Skype, prayer endures and it never gets old! I feel indebted to all of you who are praying over me and who have encouraged me with regards to my BlackBerry job and finding a fellowship here in Ontario. Its been tough, for sure. But I am stepping out into each day with the grace of God. By His grace, He has blessed me with this position. And by His grace, He will carry me through. In any circumstance, I want to continue to live a life of worship and love. God bless y'all!

Life is definitely full of surprises. I never thought that I would be back but I was wrong. This season feels quite different than last summer. But I can't really identify one thing that makes it so different. Perhaps its not just a single factor. There could be multiple things. Spiritually. Social circles. Career. They are all different. All these rapid changes can definitely leave me confused and uncertain. But I need to focus. I know what I have to lay hold of and I know where to find my rest. "In the fear of the Lord there is strong confidence, and His children will have a place of refuge." - Proverbs 14:26

The word growth is generally associated with a positive thing. But what if you don't feel like you have grown at all. I know I have felt that way several times this summer. There are definitely lots of things that I am learning about myself. Even though I can feel confident about my own identity, I realize that the last item in my things-yet-to-be-discovered-about-myself list is nowhere in sight, and it will probably stay that way for an indefinite amount of time. Although I don't feel that I have grown, I know that my life is not idle. Things in my life keep on coming in and out. Whether its friends, family, or events, they are all constantly on the move. And speaking of moving, I will also be relocating myself back to Ontario in a few days. I was digging through my previous blog posts to try to see what were some of my goals that I've set before I moved to Ontario last summer. The biggest goal back then was my recommitment to God and getting to know Him better through H...

I want to blog this before I forget. So often I find myself wanting to belong to a certain social group. It can be a circle of friends, a church group, or a workplace. There is a multitude of things that accompany this feeling. The sense of identity and comfort are amongst them. But as I reflect on these things and measure them against what Jesus has taught me, I began to see a striking difference. Jesus said that in order to follow Him, we must deny everything in our lives - even our very own selves. When God has welcomed us into His family, we don't really need to supply ourselves with extra stuff. He welcomed us, just as we are - especially when we are broken and desperate to find meaning in our lives. This is not new to me, but its always refreshing when it is revealed to me in a new light. Here's an analogy: during the weekend, I was spending some time at home with my parents. Unfortunately, I got sick over the weekend but I have to go back to my 'rental' pla...

are always bittersweet - at least for me. Its really cool to see how God put certain people in your life; you get to learn from them and they get to learn from you. Relationships, accountabilities, challenges... we encounter these things as we build trust and friendships with people in our lives. People will come and go in our lives, and over these past years I have learned (and I'm still learning) to cherish every moment that I spent with my friends and family. But as I grew older, my interest and my path began to change. Circumstances and life happen, and that might result in farewells and goodbyes. But whatever happens, I am really excited for both you and me. God has something greater in store for us. Although that includes finding a new circle of friends/ family, the enjoyment of God overcomes everything else. And I rejoice to see how you've grown in His love and how He has helped me to grow as well. Though goodbyes are difficult, the excitement to see what God has done,...

working and having fun? Wow, summer is almost done. Life just keeps moving on and on and on... But praise God! I finished my practicum with the Core yesterday. It has been such an amazing experience. Being able to work on a topic that I find fascinating, while also learning and acquiring many new skills, has been such a blessing. This past two weeks have been amazing as well, since I got the spend time with my cousins and aunt who were visiting VanCity. We did so many things. Got to show them some stuff in VanCity that they've never seen before: Grouse Grind, Diez Vistas, hipster-ville (the Drive and Main), Coal Harbour, free Swing/Samba dancing, and much more. Needless to say, it has been a good summer. Though I sometimes feel like I need a vacation, I'm surprised that I was able to handle both work and "part-time vacation" this summer. Thanks be to God. Hanging out with family is fun but as I grew older, I began to see that no family (including mine) is perfect. T...